thinking on her 05.14.02

thinking on her

time after time i think on her
the one true love of my life
she is not the center of my happiness
but she is often times the reason for my sorrow
sometimes i think on her in anger
yet in the end it always turns to love
sometimes i think on her with regret
yet i forgive her for not forgiving me
if she were here now
i’d have to turn and walk away
for the pain would be all too great
and the tears would well up in my eyes
just like every night when i think on her
and quietly cry myself to sleep
one day maybe she’ll love me back
one day maybe we’ll walk hand in hand
one day maybe we’ll whisper our love
but that day is far and hard to see
so now, i’ll love her as i always have
and i’ll be strong on the outside
though inside strength is lacking
and as always i’ll think on her
and pretend and fantasize
that maybe she is thinking on me