no regrets

no regrets

not sorry, no regrets, no apologies
i am me, i make mistakes, i fail, i falter
i shall, i will, i did, i am
speaking my mind in riddles
you fail to understand
you fail to appreciate
no, i can find no sorry, no pity
no, i have no regrets, no apologies
i am me and that is enough

broken heart 08.90

broken heart

she came as she left to stay away
to come back to leave a different way
she could not stay she so smugly said
left me to wonder what i did
...left me and without a good-bye
she didn't even tell me how nor why
here she comes to leave once again
to break an already broken heart

the kiss is the crime 06.11.10

the kiss is the crime

the kiss is the crime
premeditation abounds
sweetness and fear
...to die within your arms
this punishment i choose
the cold embrace
the warmth of passion
sealed by the blood on your lips
forever isn't long enough
an eternity with you
only to wake from the dream
alone

without 10.13.04

without

where does love go when it dies
where did romance and honor go
straight to the dust and ashes
or perhaps on a far away breeze
or maybe into the clouds to fall elsewhere
these things i ponder sitting here
without the love i once knew all too well
replaced now with a solid block of ice
unmeltable with the love in my heart
strange new visions of aloneness
feelings of loving that which is not here
and my hope seems without
as it fades into the abyss of that was once you
the tears are my lifes blood
each drop making me weak
each drop draining hope from me
each drop a love falling on a deaf heart
each glimpse of faith and hope
quickly replaced with the emptiness
and the thoughts of alone and without
without a love, without a peace
without a trace

wish 01.08.02

wish

i wish i had danced with you when you asked
maybe things would be different today
just to hold you again to smell your hair
to touch your face and feel you smile
my heart aches for all that is you
i have been a way for a million years
each second and eternity slipping slowly away
with each mile i miss you more
even the sunset was not perfect without you
i try to think of tomorrow without you
and the only thing that comes are the tears
blurring the road ahead
all that i see is lessened without you
the colors look washed faded dull
my mind is a maelstrom of thoughts
all revolving around you
i miss all that you are
i miss myself without you