i do not know 02.15.05

i do not know 02.15.05

my fears reveal me for who i am
a scared little boy knowing nothing
i let myself down once again
did i cause you doubt
or did it reinforce
did it even do anything at all
perhaps all it did was show my ignorance
i can misread anything
and craft it to my will
i can delude my every thought
and see that which is not there
i fear to see your face
i fear to hear your voice
for fear of what i feel is but within me
i shall treat it as casual as i can
with no indication for you
for fear you’ll break my illusion
you are every woman
i see you within every woman
is what i feel real
am i real
i do not know
i do not know