courage 02.14.05

courage

i feel that i may have made a mistake
i have that sinking feeling of regret
why do i do these things to myself
you’ve never once given me indication
i built it all in my head
i made it all up
you don’t even know i exist
or if you do you have no interest
well self delusion is my talent
quite good at it am i
still the thoughts bring me joy
seeing your beautiful face
still makes my heart skip a beat
i wish for so much more
but that is just a dream
you’ll not turn my way
you’ll not make my day
worry not i am well versed
in rejection i know
forever alone in my thoughts
without the courage for actions
one day may i have the courage
one day may i not be alone